okay i havent blogged in ages! hellooo.

exams have ended and tho i died horribly, thats for me to worry abt when the results are released, which is 23rd dec. meanwhile, i had a good few days after exams! :D:D thanks to good company :) and i went to escape ytd it was really fun! :) but that place is in need of a major revamp man.

i'll be off to hk in like.. 1 week's time! :D:D:D:D hohohoho. time to plan itinerary tho. hehe. super excited. gna go crazy shopping. and hopefully get to see fung there! ohmy~

and i just found out i have house of the dead on wii at home! which means i can play shooting games for as much as i want to. one day i'll become a pro already! :D and ive got mahjong/wii session tmr so yay!

actually i realised im like super free now now that exams and school are over for the semester. its reli shuang and nice. hoho. hope the holidays will pass fruitfully for me, and the people around me :)




(:

but ): for guards. wth!!!

BACK FROM TAIWAN!!! :D:D:D

3 weeks are finally over.. it wasnt that bad after all :) heh. and i realised i had many realisations while i was alone these 3 wks.. actually i wasnt tt alone but in a way i was alone. but yea many things happened and they weren't all that bad! :)

i'm like 90% confirmed going to hongkong in december!! :D

fung is 30% confirmed coming to singapore on the 27th!!! :D

AND I (finally) GOT MY PAIR OF TIGERS!! :D specially flown in from taiwan... just the design i wanted (:(:

shit exams coming ):

hmm just watched the tvb awards presentations... results were pretty much what i expected. fung din get best actor and i feel pretty sad ): actually, he wasnt gna get it at all i tink.. but imagine how horrible it feels when everyone ard u is like rooting for tt someone else when u reli think u have a chance and u want it that much :(

and in my many years of being a fung fan, i tink this has been his best year as yet. but hes nt gna hav a chance to act in such a gd show anymore, since he wants to sing and since there are so many political things going on.. so when will be the next time he gets the award in recognition of his efforts?

actually besides the money and fame, i tink theres nothing good about being in the showbiz industry.. have to live like another person, live up to the 'image' and basically, u lose yourself and cannot be yourself anymore.

anyway, i guess it sort of mirrors my own experience the past year. as the year comes to a close.. i have to make a decision.. and then i have to accept whatever decision i made.

i guess i have to recognise that since i lost that opportunity, its nv gna come back no matter how hard i try and regardless of how good i tink i am (i really think im good ok haha). what to do? live with it lor... (unless half a million falls from the sky, and i become someone whos not hesitant)

perhaps, what is the most beneficial thing to me through this all is the experience of some sort of failure in an otherwise very satisfying life ive had.. better fall now than later and die. hmm... but the sad thing is that this has been my future and my dream. heh. dreams mean alot to everyone i guess.

so.. i nid to find something else i really want in my life.. actually, i tink i noe what it is, just that i dont want to accept it as it is right now. im onli 19. sigh. pls fast forward me 10 years or rewind me 1 year.

shit i feel damn emo now ):



i went driving today and my instructor fell asleep and it was scary! haha. cos no one to help me see mirrors >.< but fun cos nt stressful. but i tink i pissed my instructor off cos i had to do and e-brake (without the skidding sound) at the traffic junction and he awoke from his slumber with a shock and aft tt he was v awake and rather fierce. hahaha.

today's the last day of school! :D

exams are coming :( are exams that impt?? nus even has a website for us to check everything and stuff. and my mailbox has been flooding with exam-related stuff.. like.. so serious like tt.. but im nt stressed tho i dno anything and i havent started >.<

okay i tink tts bad.

so i better go do some revision.. make myself feel better!

hello! just a random update of the events the past few busy days:

1. went for my usp interview today! it was actually pretty fun haha. and the angmoh prof, who was one of the interviewers, was reli good looking. hahahaha. he had blue eyes :O and i just learnt from a book that people with blue eyes are actually rare! in fact most angmohs will still have brown eyes. hmmmmm. okay anw, im kinda like considering the forensic science minor thing too.. so i might nt take up usp. that is if they take me haha. but i was just crapping during the interview :P

2. i am still procrastinating when im supposed to be studying!!!!! -.-

3. most likely going hk in dec with yixi! finally, hongkong!! :D

4. went to send xunyu off, who was extremely late for his flight and who was quite emo. haha. i tink i'll cry like dno what if i were to go overseas... given the past few experiences of sending my friends off..

5. school's ending! and i've got friday off woooo!

6. i went out with uni friends for like the first time haha. and it was pretty fun actually!

7. i found a book i really wna have :D haha. but i dno if i can find it in bookstores here. chanced upon it in the library and its so fascinating! :D


last, but definitely NOT the least:

A CALL FROM TAIWANNNNN

:D:D:D:D:D lalalaaaaaa. and it's only FIVE5FIVE5FIVE5 days more to SUNDAY WOOOOHOOOOOOO!!!! and for the first time in like 2 weeks, taiwan feels so near :)

2am last night i was still wide awake >.< so i went to be emo - read letters from last yr (which made me cry and smile and laugh altogether), and read the farewell notes from the 33rd (: which is really, the best farewell gift we gave each other (: 1.5 yrs alr! wow.

its like, 1 yr since graduation and it seems like ytd.. how fast. and i miss hc alot. boooo.

and i have a usp interview on tuesday. ahhh! im nw nt sure whether i will want to be in usp (shld i be offered, that is) cos theres a forensic science minor which is open for application.. and which im super interested in.

hmm.

ohwell. argh, im supposed to be mugging.

and im trying to abstain from facebook till he comes back at least!! facebook is so so evil. booo.

it's day10 :( :) ? and i'm super bored in skl now waiting for lecture to start.. thus, i'm blogging.. gna watch high school musical (haha i'm gna feel so overaged) later w yixi n zhang. a stupid woman pangsehed us tsk. its a rainy day.. how depressing :(


(1 am)

just got home! hsm3 was actually nicer than i thought, and rather meaningful in a way.. qt relevant to us j3s actually. cos we just left jc (where im qt sure many ppl had gd memories of), then some of our friends are going overseas and some of them have to go thru the painful process of being separated from their other half. its qt nice. and the stage setting and all was qt nice too! only that zac efron wasnt as gd looking :/ haha.

and it was nice hanging out with the girls (: tho i was qt emo today (thanks to the movie (which made me qt weepy hahaha) and just being outside.. being outside makes me emo booooo).

ohwells. but it was a nice day after all :) and with a gathering with snr ppl coming up.. i guess now's the time to catch up with ppl i too easily neglect when he is ard :)