ytd was an interesting day which set me thinking abt my whole uni thing all over again.

well firstly, i noe i did damn badly for my mid term tests (which were finally over ytd). which is expected but saddening nonetheless. not that i didnt try. maybe just not hard enough.

i sense that im so different from the me back in all my schooling years before this. i've lost my goal in life. and so i really have no motivation to do anything related to studying now. i think im becoming someone who's really too lax about school stuff. its like how im taking only 4 modules now and im nt concerned at all. and how i cant study at all though i want to, how im doing so badly for the tests AND am nt that concerned abt it.

and its just like how, i dread going to school, i cant be bothered to turn up on time for lectures, i look forward to going home everyday, i look forward to weekends and holidays, i dont have the mood to do tutorials......

sigh i've changed. school is no longer my priority. so whats my priority now???

wow i do sound like i really hate school. haha.

oh and had a nice chat with the few friends i have in uni ytd over dinner. which made me so annoyed about the uni admission thing again. well, specifically medicine. firstly, it makes all the difference if you have networking and links with THE PEOPLE inside (as with friend A who in the end decided nt to go for medicine cos he thot he did too badly :/), and 2nd-ly, the people there really, really dont care if you have 1 million times more interest and passion than the ppl they take in (cos friend B tried applying for a 2nd time in the 2nd year and din even get an interview).

haha, who knows i'll meet my gui4 ren2 someday before next may.

sigh.