so i said,

"you shldnt doubt yourself just because the people who dont know you that well doubt your abilities. what matters more is that you don't doubt your own abilities and what you really can do."

and after actually saying this to someone other than myself, ive found renewed belief in this. hell, i seriously think i can be a good doctor though my interviewers didn't think so. maybe this is my ego speaking. (hello ego!) but i really think i can be a good doctor. i havent been so confident elsewhere, or even been so confident before.. hm.

i am still considering the reluctant option of going overseas. it will be a selfish decision.

so i am still thinking.




to steffi: yes you are very right, rice you're not the only one but u're still the one! :P
to rice: refer to the above :D
to yixi: depressing period bleh :( oh dreams why are you so hard to catch. hahaha.