its been a period of severe :( i realised that the people ard me are going into uni upbeat.. or at least nt unhappy. i have absolutely nth to look forward to in uni.. doing sth i dont like, no friends, no hostel (i live in yishun argh!), no orientation camp to go to even.. the camp organizers dont seem to care about people who will struggle in uni (i.e. me, and thus nid the camp badly) cos they dont have friends there or sth like that. and my sis said it'll b a regret if i miss out on the camp cos its really fun and a part of uni life. :(

and its been a period of internal struggle.. whether to pursue my dream in aus.. and empty my parents' savings. well for now this is more or less settled.. idp person (i did not get his namecard) says i shld wait for another yr to apply cos most of the application dates are over.. i'll hav more and better choices nxt yr.. so i'll hav to stick it out in nus first.. take some time think properly.. but knowing myself, i know it's goodbye to my dreams because unless nus really sucks that much that im miserable the whole yr, i wont go aus alr i guess..

maybe all these are happening to toughen me up :( i declare its the first setback of my lfie.. hai. who knows who knows. maybe its just nt fated to be. master wugui fr kungfu panda said "there is no accident"..

ohwells. anw. jason mraz's new album seems to be the nicest out of the 3 so far.. not so indie but not to the extent of mainstream.. nice :)