i got a horrible piece of news on my birthday. my worst birthday, my worst present.. it seriously sucks and i was like, depressed for 2 days. luckily, i feel better today :)

it's horrible because i've worked so hard for it (since PSLE!!!!!!) only to fall at the last step.. it also means dreams dashed. which sucks. i shall not watch medical dramas for some time now. (but i cant resist the allure of House..)

sigh.

but now, i'm just refusing to admit that it has been a good news in disguise. really. but just refusing to admit because i still have a small hope of making it. i'm gonna APPEAL. and yes, its good news because i got alot of love in return (some from people i didnt really expect!) and i'm so thankful for that :)

guess thats still a good birthday present :)

and i figured. it's never too late, never too difficult to achieve sth i want as long as i want it badly enough. there are many opportunities around. that i have the luxury to think about it after my undergrad studies.

that i shall see. for now, i'm gonna give it one last shot and i hope i have the chance to do that.

(oh my i sound optimistic!! haha)