sigh.

:( and double :( :(

life's been boring. and sad. very sad in fact. sigh. but im sure im nt in the worst situation that can be (read remote island, phone without charger, physical activity, tekkaning, waking up at 5am, no contact with civilisation, horrible food blablabla. and CONFINEMENT). so i shld not complain :(

but i cant help feeling kinda depressed. bleh. and it feels like theres no one to talk to abt all these. sigh. so i drown my sorrows in watching hk dramas every night. soon it'll be reading every night, until one day i might just run out of things to do.

perhaps luckily, work has been slightly less aimless. i got to do sth more useful, less mundane, less brainless ytd (which continued to today). and i feel much more useful. (ahh, self worth) and working hard on sth, concentrating on sth just takes my mind off the very :( moments.

so i forsee that i'll become v depressed everyday once i stop work.. not like i want to continue working tho. i wish to do more meaningful stuff. maybe then that'll take my mind off things too.

argh, whatever.

it's a long 10 days to go.