TOMORROW!!! :D:D:D:D

finally, the letter with the orange letterhead came.

i've never wanted sth so much before.

and i'm go all out.

ahhhh this is scary :(

i forgot to bring my phone to work today :( so i am quite cut off from civilisation. first time i forgot to being my phone out! grr. and i missed the empty train this morning.

supposedly, its a bad day.

but surprisingly, it didnt reli affect my mood! haha. cos my sad and depressed soul was healed ytd, and the healing is enough to last me another.. 2 days? :D

and i got to speak to a very very friendly and nice doctor just now so she made my day!

and im eating rice crackers! just what ive been craving for..

yay :)

and i should ask my friends out soon. like really soon. i nid to buy farewell gifts for my colleagues!!! :O

bleh.

sigh.

:( and double :( :(

life's been boring. and sad. very sad in fact. sigh. but im sure im nt in the worst situation that can be (read remote island, phone without charger, physical activity, tekkaning, waking up at 5am, no contact with civilisation, horrible food blablabla. and CONFINEMENT). so i shld not complain :(

but i cant help feeling kinda depressed. bleh. and it feels like theres no one to talk to abt all these. sigh. so i drown my sorrows in watching hk dramas every night. soon it'll be reading every night, until one day i might just run out of things to do.

perhaps luckily, work has been slightly less aimless. i got to do sth more useful, less mundane, less brainless ytd (which continued to today). and i feel much more useful. (ahh, self worth) and working hard on sth, concentrating on sth just takes my mind off the very :( moments.

so i forsee that i'll become v depressed everyday once i stop work.. not like i want to continue working tho. i wish to do more meaningful stuff. maybe then that'll take my mind off things too.

argh, whatever.

it's a long 10 days to go.

im going back to work tmr :( sadsad.

and the precious 15 mins made me smile.

:))))

heh.

oh i completed a drama serial in like 3 days goes to show how free i am -.- and i could iron my working clothes for the rest of the wk (or 2) while watching! haha. anw another reason why i like watching drama serials (besides fung) is how happily-ever-after they could be :) i love happy endings!

argh.. work.....

wah i din noe my photo album on facebook would have so many comments -.- haha but they all made me smile, so thank you to all my friends! :)

mmhmm. april 11 passed just like that.. it was a depressing day :( but it was rather meaningful too. depressing cos the demon of tekong has kidnapped all the recruits for 2 weeks :( and cos i din even get to go into tekong cos i promised my mum to bring her to the doctor. so the goodbye was like, so short and sad :(

but then again, the trip to the doctor was the meaningful part! cos my mum told me alot of things. like how her dad (my granddad) lived his life as a china immigrant in the early singapore days (and how he is actually very righteous! haha). and she told me how she prayed for me to get into medicine. ohman sweet.. and i was so touched cos this support that shes giving me is so subtle tt i wldnt have known if she din tell me. and mums reli know best! cos she knows why i wna be a doctor when i havent told her before :)

ahh but life's been rather aimless. and i have to go back to work on monday.. oh 2 weeks, pls pass faster :(

it feels good not to go to work on a monday morning :D:D:D

hoho.

and its nice to go to the beach and not come back like a lobster :D

4 days left :(