i learnt sth new and really valuable in life today.

that is, i shld learn to be more expressive. cos if im not, these things will happen:
1. i'll have no friends
2. even if i have friends, i'll bore them out
3. one day i'll explode if i keep all my emotions to myself
4. i might fall into depression!!!
5. i wont really survive very well in the corporate world oops. (tho i dont really want to go into the corporate world..)

life is interesting. i mean, before today i thought i was doing fine with people ard me. well actually im not that fine but i dont suck either i think. :/ then i found out that its nt always good to not express your discomfort or unhappiness even though u do that so you dont affect the people around you. this is because people end up perplexed at you because you seem so complicated. then people dont really dare to approach you. and if you don't say, others won't know so it'll just go on and on and annoy you even more.

i understand myself and i know myself. but that's not enough because sometimes, people want to know the you within you, not just the one on the surface, the plain old you. i guess every one has an alter ego in a sense. (how abt mine! - i want to know mine) but sometimes the words just dont come out of my mouth.. they cant.. unlike when i write (in my trusty diary) everything seems to flow. hm. sucks.

bleh it's so difficult to know that you are being yourself but it's not enough because you need to be a little more than that. (cos sadly the myself in me is quite anti-social haha - which is why i kinda dread uni life cos it's gna be making new frens again. rahhhh) well actually i can be self-absorbed and actually be anti=social. but i dont want to haha. this is so.. ironic.

argh whatever la. i just made a new goal in life, which is to be a more expressive person. to know how to translate my very expressive things i write into things i say.

i'll try! :)