finally, the blocks are over. (okay i still have physics paper 3 but im not really concerned with that.)

my mum complained that i lost weight and that i shldnt study so hard. -.- its nt a bad thing i think i gained back the weight with the junk i ate this week. my jaw does look sharper though and im quite happy with that haha. actually my eyes feel tired now.

so, physically and mentally tired = burnout??

dunno. there has been ALOT on my mind these few days. it sucks. almost every night, i cannot get to sleep because im thinking about things. even when im in a good mood (like today after my paper), i start thinking about all these things and then the world ard me just seems to darken. then i get moody and all. and life's too short to be spent being un-nice to the people you love so i felt kinda bad i was so moody towards my mum. argh.

i guess i really kept everything in me until just now, i just teared cos i cldnt take it anymore. it was only a few seconds. strangely, after that i felt alot better. its as if i released my pent up frustrations in those drops of tears. my heart felt alot better as if some weight has been taken off it, or ive let go of something.

i guess this week hasnt been a good one for me. maybe its the block tests but since when did i really care about blocks. its just a week of frustrations, fatigue, misunderstandings?, annoyance...

i just hope that next week will be a better one. it'll start with tmr, when i'll go on retail therapy (guitar stuff, cds, books) and for the aus vs sg match. hopefully i'll see more smiles on my face.

after all, thinking doesnt solve problems.

sigh.

夕阳无限好, 只是近黄昏
i like this phrase :)