havent been in a very good mood lately.. perhaps more 'thinky' these few days.

blah. im abit sick of school. so hectic and all. BLEH.

and im so disappointed in myself lah. academics and what i tell ppl. like how i cld tell ppl to jiayou and do stuff when i cant encourage myself to do that. bleh, i think i just lack that self belief.. which made me wonder how in the world did i get into hc. must be some act of luck or sth. or computer screw up like how my laptop did just now and i cldnt go online. yeah and im starting to think im damn stupid, study hard work hard put in effort also cant do things well.

arghs.

okay ranting.

but yeah morale has been low for this whole period of time, so much so that i had the impulse just now on the train to just go home and mug my life away. (but then v was = 0, so impulse = mv = 0) but then again, it doesnt help. AT ALL.

arghs nvm. let me slp and let me feel better.

ohyeah i had a funny dream ytd, tt i got kidnapped and the ransom was oil. haha.