okay call me the queen of procrastination..

slacking online now! when i was supposed to do a draft for my draft of my EoM. arghs. till now i havent digged up my article yet.. sian. it simply reminds me of ss/elec history src based qns.. which i abhor.

ROARRR.

ricehead is STILL jioing me. haha.

okay i better scoot off to dig up my article, attempt to write some words, do some maths, settle some accounts, and slp earlier.

i cant believe i stayed up till 12.30 last nite, writing bio notes then playing puzzle bubble.

ahh the puzzle bubble bug has caught on me.. tho the game's been in my phone for ages and i've completed the game like 5 times. -__-"

WAD AN INTERESTING WEEK.

havent been online in 4 days then these 4 days were happening. lets see..

tue 25th aug: went queensway aft skl! and i impulse bot the nike shoebag i've wanted for so long :)

wed 26th aug: gave a presentation for CMS! haha. it was actually qt fun tho i was nervous :) then went aj ne seminar where i tried SUPER HARD not to slp. just went there to sian all the way. (this isnt tt happening is it?!)

thu 27th aug: er played bball like every thurs. haa

fri 28th aug: SCANDALOUS RECESS. sighting 1: this bickering couple taking each other's wallets, then making up agn. sighting 2: birds fighting. sighting 3: yz n kb. sighting 4: another band couple! (i think im nt supp to say too much)

BUT IM OFFICIALLY DUMPED! hahahahahhaa. but dory who's a she (tsk). but im happy to be dumped la :P

after which ricehead just announced to the whole world at the place btw canteen steps n class benches "I'M OPEN!" haha. and she wans me to jio her -_-" (or rather, shes jioing me :P)

okay la the next most happening thing was ARES NIGHT! :D rotted then went to buy food for faccomm with hongyi+dinghong. bear so high la singing all the way. haha.

more rotting.

then the thing started! okay i tink the best perfs were fac heads' and mr teh's. and of cos, who can forget, 05S70's PERFORMANCE! it was smashing brilliant, the guys sang 'cant take my eyes off u' for the girls. ACAPELLA! TONS SWEET. so there i was super jealous of tt class.. the whole class is one clique.. n they were the most enthu.. whole class turned up despite busy schedule. ARGHS DREAM CLASS!! i seriously cant visualise our class guys doing tt for us. (they wont) ohmans. they're truly deserving of ares class of the year! :)

today! er leaps. public speaking. no comments.
1st break went to play uno stacko la hahaha. and we all target jess (truth or truth for loser! :P) then currywok (SAMBAL CHILI!!) lunch nice :) and we saw this 'meat numb' msg before jess left. TSK! hahaha.

walked back to skl for more uno stacko with ricehead n yixi! then siandiao n left me n rice. so while she was playing my phone de puzzle bubble (LEFT HALF BATT I CHARGED YTD LA).

then i was fiddling with the guitar! I WAN TO LEARN GUITAR! haha. i realised tong hua is easy to pluck on the guitar, n i learn finish my linghui... de intro. haha. n i onli rmb A chord. >.<

(exciting part) guys X and Y walked in. IRONIC seriously. then like pair-pair. i got photo evidence! hahahahaha. it was the most interesting that happened today n i dont think it'll ever happen agn man. :D fate la.

had a nice time at library aft that, where i found 2 comics, 2 bks for pw, 1 beckham joke book and 1 book on diseases! haha. o n i was tryin to find "guitar for dummies" but DONT HAV! i shall invest in learning guitar. soon.


high - laalalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

havent been in a very good mood lately.. perhaps more 'thinky' these few days.

blah. im abit sick of school. so hectic and all. BLEH.

and im so disappointed in myself lah. academics and what i tell ppl. like how i cld tell ppl to jiayou and do stuff when i cant encourage myself to do that. bleh, i think i just lack that self belief.. which made me wonder how in the world did i get into hc. must be some act of luck or sth. or computer screw up like how my laptop did just now and i cldnt go online. yeah and im starting to think im damn stupid, study hard work hard put in effort also cant do things well.

arghs.

okay ranting.

but yeah morale has been low for this whole period of time, so much so that i had the impulse just now on the train to just go home and mug my life away. (but then v was = 0, so impulse = mv = 0) but then again, it doesnt help. AT ALL.

arghs nvm. let me slp and let me feel better.

ohyeah i had a funny dream ytd, tt i got kidnapped and the ransom was oil. haha.

ahh life of chionging

lets see im supp to:
- do reseach for my econs and then finish up my econs (apparently 'buffer stock' doesnt exist on wiki?!?!)
- do more maths tut 6b
- write my script for CMS
- pw surveys

and i havent done anything!! (okay except a few surveys)

ARGHSSSS.

i think i'll just slp at 1.30am again today. wahaha.

okay time to chiong more.

its true that u miss out on alot of things in life when u are so caught up..
i reli nid to put in more effort in relationships in general..

ahh so i procrastinated once more and have done no work so far today.

but its for a good cause :)

had primary school gathering today! :D:D though it was onli 10 ppl but it was still v v fun

first was clique gathering at khatib mac's for brunch - me mel(no surprise element cos we went to sn tgt) kate(still so chio) yuannshan(looks the same!) liting(looks the same too except for long hair this time). had fun talking about the silly things we did tgt! haha. and had a hard time recollecting all those stuff. but it was funn :)

met up with the guys - gary (looks the same), timothy (omg. elongated and tanner, qt diff eh), weijie(SAME), melvin (looks er. more mature. with fiery hair. haha), helmi(same guy), khairi(...!!!!)
the last 2 guys are like ahbengs!! and for khairi it was like so OMG OMG. can u imagine a quiet prefect in primary skl turning into a.. scary ahbeng in just 4.5 years?! haha. everyone OMG after we saw him. haha. he just had this funky/scary/unusual/intimidating/mysterious looking hairstyle. haha.

photo taking..

then walked to nbps for their funfair.. reli happening. then saw tchers (mano din rmb most of us), walk ard.. played bball! it was super fun :) guys were so tall.. but girls were pro (netballers)! haha. and khairi was alws stoning so super funny!

then we were chased out of hall.. den bot drinks, stone, visit classrooms (tho they dun look anything like the good old (and haunted) nbps :(.. then went yishun safra! where we spent a looong time playing pool (i love pool)! haha. then hungry and went northpoint ljs for dinnerrr. exchanged no.s, and went home! :)

satisfying. it's reli exciting to see friends u havent heard from and seen for 4.5years! haha. and to see how they change.. and we we all changed (cos we were anti-guys haha.) and to just hang out as one whole grp, forcing the guys to take walk into a pink shop and take neos.. those were the good old days.. all of us have grown up, but yeah it's reli funny cos we er.. did alot of funny stuff in pskl. :P hahaha.

i look forward to seeing my sn friends in 4yrs man (tho of cos i wan to see them SOON!!!). and to see my pskl friends (more of them!!) reli soon too!! :D

arghs. back to reality.. i got loads of hw :(

ahhhh someone just brightened up my day :)

mushroom said: "i'll wait for the day when you tell me that you're happy wif your chem results! and that day will be when you get your promo results"

like ohman! she does have a way of making people happy even if its something small :) THANKS CHIEH!

bleh so today finished getting back all my results.. and basically for blocks i got every grade possible except A. -__-" arghs but ive got past the disappointment (fast huh) and resolution for this term is not to lag hw by so much and START PROMOS MUGGING! and i er nid to reevaluate my studying methods. BLAH.

ohnvm. it will take more to bring me down :)

tmr pskl gathering! haha. its amazing how 6.1 (or at least half of it) is still alive after so many eons.. lunching tmr then a trip back to nbps! haha. it's been a long time coming. bt i do look forward to 4C gathering more :)

alrights time to do other stuff so i wont be stuck online for so long again..

ahh sian.

got back bio and econs today. i passed bio! :) mcq/essays are my saving grace. so i was quite happy! D somemore. haha. then like yanhao n yipei in top30 for cohort lah!! -_- omg.

but then again, econs was horrendous. i completely screwed up my essay! when i din noe i did. sigh. so i was quite disappointed at my results, but not sad. just.. disappointed. like again i failed to perform to my expectations.. i think i shld stop expecting so much from myself. sighs. so i went to nap just nw (cos i was thinking too much alr) and i do feel better :)

its ironic when other ppl have parents who wan them to perform so well bt then here i am my parents hecking bt then im pressurising myself -___-" which is actually gd in a way.. onli nid to answer to myself. :)

gna do my article appraisals. ahhh hope get some 同情分!

alrights nvm. to think on the bright side all my other subjects (except gp) are better than i expected.

ahh chem tmr :(

i tink im gna get sick of academics soon :X! haha. nvm.. must just perservere. i think i wan to start mugging for promos alr lah -_-"

我想我终于想通了

ive finally moved on. (i think?)
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ohwells. meanwhile, i got an E for physics! :D:D:D like happy man! haha. at first i thought i got S but turns out it was an E :) yayy. that was like my aim! tho i am 5% disappointed cos i spent quite alot of time doing tys. but nvm! as if this never happened b4.. haha wanted to show mushroom my marks! bt then i didnt c her today :( haha.

i hate gp. actually, i hate gp lessons. they make me hate gp. ugh. im gna spend like everyday doing gp hw man THANKS. just ranting..

CITYGATE stuff tmr! :D i love saigang!!!!! :D:D:D:D

I AM SUCH A PIG! hahaha. let me narrate wad i ate today:
breakfast: 1pc of cake + 3/4cup choc milk
lunch: bubble tea! (okay this is qt little haha)
dinner: (reception food) 4 little brownies, 2 bowls of almond jelly, 2 bowls of GOOD laksa, beehoon+tofu, random spring roll, random pasteries, fruit punch. (bowl is the mini bowl lah)
post dinner I: island creamery hot fudge sundae! (luckily its shared)
post dinner II: several mini tomatoes + 2 oranges

hoho. im nt too full. :)

anw. today was ushering for college day. i have never had an experience where my toes on both legs totally cramped. bt today it happened cos the stupid court shoes were so uncomfy and hard and aft walking ard for 4-5hrs they cramped at the end of the whole thing. ahhhh. and i said 'good afternoon' 46937465 times and had to open/close/hold the door. haha.

bt it was worth it, cos at the end of the thing, we got to enjoy the reception which was the best catered food i've tasted for ages. :D (which explained my voracious appetite) the highlights were the brownie, almond jelly (tho there wasnt enough almond taste) and the LAKSA. it was totally good i had 2 helpings. YUMMMMMM. :)

then rot in council rm for 1 hr?! haha. then went island creamery with 6 other ppl n had a nice time crapping n eating :)

which made me quite happy :D

haha mayb im easily contented with these kind of stuff lah. :D

so im now online supposedly helping ricer with physics spa. but she found the wrong person man, my phy totally CMI. yay

class outing tmr! wad a busy wkend :)



ahh y must there be war. it's totally unneccesary. boo. more diplomatic leaders shld be put in place. ahh im worried :(

wah i went thru the whole of today half asleep, half awake.

first was chem lab. which i half slept. cos the tcher was super soft. the thing is, he was telling us to project our voice. v true man. ugh. anw then jess got sick! :( so went to get ocp and find ct. come back alr i onli had time to do setup. so i din do the expt. then suay suay that kelvintan ask me to say a src of error. then like ?!?!??! i nv do how do i noe. so i just randomly said some wrong thing. then it was wrong. and i heck. bt he alr had his model ans alr lah, no point asking. ugh. anw i c him not shun yan thankyou.

the rest of the day was equally sleepy.

then had college day rehearsal. v fei! arghs. but like 10 odd of us slacked in council rm aft tt talking crap. haha qt fun :)

okay then i went back and bot BK. just when i got my food, my parents called to say they were eating out without me. arghs!

okay nvm. i nid to slp earlier. so i dont reli become a panda, where i can onli take black and white pics. (do u get the joke?!)

joli toh visiting tmr! :)

maybe its just me but my face just started being painful again. :( the story goes that i was playing bball with class guys today then weixiong so violent and the ball piakkedd nto my face while i was tryin to catch rebound. :( bt actually the thing i was worried abt was my nose becoming crooked. haha. bt it's okay! but it's kinda pain once i thought it was pain.

i nid some form of distraction!!

okay it has sort of come in the form of rice's scandalous what-a-small-world (possibly) message. ahh i love being kpo. :P scandalous girl.

hm i nid more distraction. it feels v orrrr cheh now!

okay actually im super bored. as usual. skl life has been so.. hectic! tho ive been slacking. blah. everyday go skl, stay awake, trudge thru, stone aft skl, go home, eat, online.

wah so caught up sia.

time to put more effort in stuffs



whats the song with "you'll always beeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. my love"?????
(xie tian hua aka ah yue sang it in LFD v nice eh. it's just the kind of song i like. haha. sappy ballad.)

i am sleepy

i miss holiday sleeping, where i can sleep for up to 10hrs. (wad a pig) haha. its onli wk3 and im qt busy alr. term3 die alr!! and we onli (ONLY) have ~7wks to promos. kill me.

and i am SUPER UNFIT and FAIR!!!!!!! cos i ran 1 round (400m) today and almost die alr. craps. i nid more bball and tanning sessions. bball kaki KF WHERE ARE U?!?!?!

oh and ms tee goes thru tutorials at a super fast speed (like 5x mr koh's speed), i nid to do my differentiation tutorials like. super fast now. :S

HEARTBREAK.

on a fine saturday night, after 33rd's jts, i was on an 852 along lentor road (ie macritchie). suddenly, i received rice's msg. then i read it and tried to delete it. BUT I CLDNT. cos my phone went sot and her msg was constantly displayed as new msg. so i offed my phone. AND I CLDNT ON IT AGAIN.

so on a rainy sunday afternoon (ie ytd), i went to the nokia care centre at causeway pt. 20mins later, my phone was fixed i.e. FORMATTED. so away went my 200+++ msgs accumulated over 1 yr (theres a reason why they're there :( ) and my bro's msgs. I AM DEAD. and heartbroken. :((((( sigh. now my phone is probably the most uninteresting thing on earth. (it doesnt even have tetris?!?!?!?!?!)

MORE HEARTBREAK.

on a fine sunday night, i slept at 11.50pm, setting my alarm at 1.30am. however, i never heard my alarm and i onli woke up at 4.44am, after i received kf's msg that italy won the world cup. I ACTUALLY SLEPT THRU ALL THAT. i threw a tantrum (to myself) for 10mins, aft which i slept again. and i woke up late for school.

piang, piang, piang.

HEADBREAK.

i almost got murdered by rice today -___-" cos her SCGS (sngs is better duh) jacket zip hit my temple. sigh, the trouble of having a cfc makes her stressed, so i become her 'out air bucket' (chu1 qi4 tong3). poor me.

PIG.

ate island creamery MUDPIE again today! :D anw that stupid woman at island cremery is annoying, she refused to give us another paper to print our photo cos our 1st one was blur. ugh.

通常迷失方向的时候，你会怎么办？

有些人会停下步伐，等待救援。
有人会边走边问，相信陌生人。
各式各样不同的方法，为了就是能踏上正确的道路，方向。

我，会慢慢地走，一个人走，凭着自己的观察，思考。
有时我会火上加油，越走越远。
但我却坚信自己会慢慢找回对的路。
然后细细享受迷路时的一分一秒。

因为，只有在迷路时，你才能够看到你不熟悉的路，你才能够看到你从未看过的景色。

世界之大，很多人一辈子也看不完，那大家就珍惜迷路的时候吧！

人，有恐惧。人，胆小。大家都会害怕迷路，所以不敢迷路。


其实，真正迷了路的人，是那些从未迷路过的。。。

zzz.

wow yet another wk passed. arghs. i dont really wan to go into august.

bleh. im STILL in the holiday mood, refusing to do my maths hw. blehh. okay okay i'll do tmr. >.<

jts tmr! :D hope its fun!

blah. oh i realised i have this tendency to buy things on impulse. arghs!!!! chao pissed with myself, dont wan to tok abt it alr. arghs im low on cash!!! bye bye braun buffel!!!!!!! (till i eat bread/banana and water everyday till i save 100bucks) :( (my mum wans me to wait till theres sale b4 i buy -___-")

ohwells im halfway thru my show! :) actually i think not piaing shows is nicer. like watch 2 or 3 eps a day best. which means i nid abt another wk to finish my show. and i havent burn it!! arghs. sian

sleepy. zzzz. i shall wake up at 11 tmr! :D

hello! :D

im enjoying my days of slacking, coming home to watch vcd days!

but sadly, i realised how horrible term3 is going to be. saw bio teaching schedule - die, econs teaching schedule - die, theres still phy maths chem. and MAF/OH/ whatever stuff.

ahhhhh. so i got quite stressed. but of cos vcds are therapeutic. :)

anw met apurva on the bus ytd! it was totally qiao. i bumped into her and i said sorry w/o realising it was her. hahaha. its reli wonderful how we still have so much crap to talk abt aft 4/5years! :D

oh and i was chao slp deprived today. zZzzZZZzzzzzz. was tryin nt to fall asleep during bio/chem lects. why?? the story goes, alarm went off at 4.15am. woke up. lazy to get up. stoned in bed. 4.40am went to on tv. 85th min of france vs portugal. finished watching it. and laughed evilly at portugal cos they lost! yay. that stupid c.ronaldo wan to cry liddat i chao happy.

haha. thats so sadistic. but i dont care! :D england's death is avenged. bt i think i'll support italy!

yay. tmrs slackerrrr day. bt nid to get presents. hehh. more brokeness. bleh!!

ps: i broke my orange hairband this morning! sad :( now i have to wear my boring black hairband. boooo. i shall get a yellow hairband tmr!

booo my wireless adaptor decided to die on me :( so i havent been able to go online on my comp late into the night the past few days! crappy. miss the internet!

looks like a trip to funan is imminent.. together with ms megawati who's constantly bored and easily fascinated by a lightscribe dvd and is a challenger member <-- means i can get discount. heah. i nid an adaptor and a thumbdrive. booo.

ohwells sad to say the peer counselling session thingy wasnt conducted by ppc!! :(:( which means it was rather sian esp aft lunch (thai noodle house AGAIN) i tried to keep myself awake.

yawn.

being the bus idiot i alws am, i stupidly overshot the newton mrt station stop when i took 66 today. stopped at kk hospital, so i had to walk 3 bus stops back to newton mrt. (how stupid, but expected cos i took 66 for the first time, then realised 171 wld hav been a better choice) bt i got to c the new newton food centre! hope i have the chance to eat there!

so i went to chinatown (in fact the trip to chinatown required so much walking, from walking back fr wrong bus stop to walking ard chinatown itself). and i bought.. 1 mag and 3 cds! argh. i bot 2 cds initally <-- jason mraz and ryan cabrera (din wan to buy the latter bt since i was convinced i wldnt hav the time to go there agn i just bot it).. then when i got back i found the kennykwan cd i had been looking ages for. so i had no choice bt to buy it. haha. bt they are satisfying! :D

oh and i think my brain is degerating from too much vcd watching, TWICE today i thought i sent an sms when i had actually saved it as draft. and i onli realised hours later. arghs. must b cos fung the shuaige is a distraction! :D

skl starts officially tmr! qt happy. haha. at last my sleeping time can be abit healthier (i.e. not slp at 2 and wake up at 11) bt it means i'll get more sleep deprived. yay. -_-"

okays nid to finish my gp! :S

murphy's law proved to be right. stupid.

wth, portugal won the match.

i'm super duper pissed, because of so many things.

1. lennon was FOULED in the penalty box but didnt get a penalty when 2nd half of additional time started

2. SVEN SUCKS. why bring on carragher to take penalties when lennon, who's an attacking winger, can do it? he should stop breaking these youngsters' hearts by giving them false hopes when he subsitutes a subsitute, and bring walcott along and doesnt play him. if this was the case, he shld hav brought somemore more useful like darren bent.

3. CRISTIANO RONALDO IS A CHEAT. he dived, fouled and hes such a good actor he should get the oscars. go AWAY. enough said.

4. england showed so so so so much spirit though they were down to 10 men. this was the best world cup game they played so far. im reli proud of then, and they really didnt deserve to lose. i wldnt have felt so sore if it was the other matches, where they were BAD BAD BAD. they showed the passion.

5. THE REFERREE KELONG. the stupid fifa chose an argentinian referee for the game. like, THANKS MAN. argentina out alr and he can vent his anger on the english team.

6. i was so heartbroken to see the players cry aft tt (except for beckham the gay). some of them wont have a chance to play in the world cup anymore! :(

ROARRRRR.
so anger + sadness + soreness + seeing those big guys cry (did u see terry??? :( and even ferdinand, who i dont qt like) = abit of tears. blah. :'(

and stupid jinrong came to tell me portugal/the ref/cronaldo rocks. BLEH.

im nt gna support anyone for the remaining matches alr, just gna watch. and i dont think brazil will win, and i dowan germany to win.

but just u wait, england will be stronger in euro 2008.


gahhh i bet i cant slp tnite.

whatever can go wrong, will go wrong

hello!

im officially a rotting couch potato! :D and i was given this identity since abt 6pm ytd. haha. been rotting in front of my comp watching 识法代言人! :D and the onli thing ive learnt is murphy's law. and more canto :D

haha. actually the show isnt as gd as i thot it wld be bt i do have fun admiring ppl who have nice hair (unlike mine). 胡杏儿 gt nice hair in the show!! ahh once my hair grows back, i'll go and get that hairstyle! :D (it'll probably take 2mths given my hair growth rate, and by then i'll be too busy -__-")

ohyeah ive watched half the show! 10eps in 1.5days, cool sia :D haha. chioning vcds totally rock! i aim to finish tmr and then start on my hw (GP UGH) on monday!

okay i shall tok abt murphy's law a little. it's qt interesting eh. once heard on radio abt it, sth abt if u apply jam on one side of a slice of bread and u accidentally drop it it'll most likely fall on the side of the jam??? sth liddat.

oh yeah i just remembered the dream i had this morning, before i woke up. scenario: i was shopping when i received a call why i wasnt at fac camp, aft which i realised i overslept for it! so i was damn pissed with myself and went home to pack and was crying (?!?! like no link haha). i was angry (i cry when im angry) for forgetting abt it, forgetting to take the ferry, forgetting to wake up, and for being left out. then i arrived there and my frens waved to me and told me i shld have poned. then i cant rmb much and i woke up at 9am, feeling extremely afraid, as if it was a nightmare.

after which i thot abt it over breakfast and i realised that im reli scared of being left out. i dont reli worry abt being left out by my family, cos i noe that they will always be there for me. i kind of like a big family, like 5 ppl's just nice. bt bro's overseas and sis' alws out, so its qt sian (bt i have my vcds! and comp. and my parents :D and schoolwork to distract me)

im more worried abt having no frens one day. hm. i may be independent (tho im the youngest in the family) bt im someone who need someone to depend on i think, like i depend on my family for support, and i do nid frens to depend on too. i totally get depressed if i have no frens one day (CHOI!!!!!) and i have to have lunch alone, go lectures alone, complain abt tests/hw to myself.

okay that sucks.

so im reli glad that i have my frens from pskl, stnicks, and now in jc. i really love everyone of them and im so grateful they have been with me thru my journey in school.

so to all my frens reading this, THANKS FOR BEING MY FREN! :D